Congratulations! 🙌

 

How hard do you have to work to hear that? 

Well, you don’t always have to. 

Congratulations!

Congratulations for taking deeper breathes when you felt overwhelmed. 

Congratulations for distracting yourself when you found it hard to focus. 

Congratulations when you found the courage to get up and go for a walk when you really wanted to just lay there. 

Congratulations for choosing to tell yourself you’re stronger than you think right now. 

Congratulations for making yourself reach out when you really wanted to isolate. 

Congratulations for doing an extra push-up when you wanted to quit. 

Congratulations on simply being aware of that negative pattern of thoughts returning. 

Congratulations on choosing to not go down the rabbit whole of negativity.

Congratulations for knowing when to talk and when to be quiet. 

Congratulations for understanding yourself a little better every day.

Congratulations for writing this. 

Congratulations!

It's so dark without you...

It’s so dark without you here. 

Why did you leave me when I needed you most? 

Why did you leave when you heard what they said? 

Why did you leave when you saw them pointing and snickering? 

Weren’t you supposed to stay then more than ever? 

Wasn’t that the time you were meant to support me? 

How did this happen?

 

It’s so dark without you with me.

 

It’s lonely without you.

 

It’s scary when all I hear is their laughter and ridicule.

 

You were so confident when they were not around.

 

When it was just you and me, it was beautiful and bright.

 

We shared joy and love in all moments.

 

We had it so good, why do you keep leaving?

 

Where are you?

 

Are you coming back?

 

Are you coming back to silence them?

 

Or am I meant to find you?

 

Do I have to move from this dark place?

 

I don’t know how, or where to go!

 

You used to guide me when I asked these question in the light.

 

Please come back to me...please!

 

Their ridicule is getting louder now. Why are you silent?

 

*breathe* *breathe* *breathe* 

*breathe* *breathe* 

...wait, I remember something… 

...I remember something you said… 

You told me that you will always be there for me. 

That you will never leave me and that you will always support me...always! 

So what happened?! Was it me? 

... 

It is me! I made this happen! 

I have allowed their voices to get louder...louder than yours! 

Their ridicule is only their doubt. 

Their doubt is only their fear. 

It’s not even about me. 

They are merely projecting.

*breathe* 

I’m sorry for doubting your faithfulness… 

You did always have my back!

It was me who blocked the light, me who stopped listening.

Me who allowed their voices to fill the space between you and I.

This needs to stop.

I need to be so close to you that your voice is the only one I hear.

I will latch onto you so strong that darkness doesn’t get a chance to creep in.

We will reunite and never split; with our vision back on our future and on what’s good for us,

We will thrive.

We. Will. Thrive.

Ambition, I love you.

Are you lonely or alone?

I'm angry, I'm upset, I'm frustrated. 

I'm at peace, I'm happy, I'm fulfilled.

I feel discouraged by what I see.

I feel encouraged through what I see.

I just want to be left alone and cry.

I just want to be with myself and breathe.

My heart is heavy.

My heart is full.

I want to be happier.

I am happy.

I am lonely.

I am alone.

What's the point of life?

What's the point of life?

What if you were only concerned about you?

What if you were only concerned about you? 

What type of world would we live in? You might ask, well...you wouldn't care really!  Some may say that would be completely selfish, how can we only be concerned about ourselves? What about other people?  Well, they would be concerned about themselves too...So what would we have to worry about?

What are you most concerned about?  Remove yourself from the 'wars', politics, economics, tertiary education, all systems such as these. None of those are your concern.  YOU are your only concern. 

You are all you have. Everyone else and everything else in this world should never come before yourself.  Focus on you... Sometimes we get desperate to find someone who we can relate to best.

Why can't I find someone like me who likes the same things I do, or has the same outlook on life as I do?

Why would you want to when you already have YOU! The problem is that we search for someone who is like us or someone who understands us, not trusting ourselves to become the person we wish to meet. The one we wish to spend most of our time with...

Are we scared to be alone? To do things alone? To venture out into the world alone? Who goes out to parties/movies/restaurants alone?! That is crazy...right? 

My freedom came when I was able to be by myself for long periods of time and not feel anxious, lonely or sad.  I have reached a beautiful place where I enjoy the company of others, but also love my own company immensely!  I make jokes and laugh with myself (not at myself...let's clear that up), I compliment myself often (this is not conceited!) and I motivate myself when I have to (even if that requires using a Les Brown accent to do so).  Spending time with yourself allows you to get to know yourself on a deeper level.  You get to understand how you operate in different settings and you get to experience and learn new things about yourself daily.  More importantly, you will automatically be happier if all you did was focus on yourself and making yourself happy.  Being unconditionally happy...this means being happy right now!! This very moment! Not when you achieve success, not when the right partner comes around, not when you get a new car, right now, without conditions!  Can you be unconditionally happy? 

This requires you to be in constant communication with yourself, being honest with yourself and admitting 'mistakes'.  Yet, the beauty I have found is that there are no such things as mistakes or wrong choices...only chances for you to figure out what it is you want.  When you know what you don't want, you know what you do want. 

So I challenge you to spend more time with yourself to really and truly get to a beautiful place of self-awareness.  Michael Jackson knew it.  He knew that in order for this world to operate at it's best, we had to focus on ourselves first, then everything else will fall into place.

Know yourself.  Love yourself.  Take care of yourself.  You...FIRST!