And one day...

 ...it will click.

It will feel perfect, comfort will embrace you;

but not a worry comfort, a peaceful comfort.

And one day it will make sense, the lows will disappear and make sense.

Your whys will be answered by 'This' day.

You'll understand like you have never ever before.

And one day you will be everything you want.

You will smell your favourite fragrance and it will fill your body with pleasure.

Nothing will seem out of reach.

And today could be that one day.

Be ready. 

Don't resist like you did that other day. Embrace yourself...

...today, now, right now,

and in this very moment; so that one day will feel normal.

So that one day can be felt today.

Congratulations! 🙌

 

How hard do you have to work to hear that? 

Well, you don’t always have to. 

Congratulations!

Congratulations for taking deeper breathes when you felt overwhelmed. 

Congratulations for distracting yourself when you found it hard to focus. 

Congratulations when you found the courage to get up and go for a walk when you really wanted to just lay there. 

Congratulations for choosing to tell yourself you’re stronger than you think right now. 

Congratulations for making yourself reach out when you really wanted to isolate. 

Congratulations for doing an extra push-up when you wanted to quit. 

Congratulations on simply being aware of that negative pattern of thoughts returning. 

Congratulations on choosing to not go down the rabbit whole of negativity.

Congratulations for knowing when to talk and when to be quiet. 

Congratulations for understanding yourself a little better every day.

Congratulations for writing this. 

Congratulations!

I'll be back soon...

Where do I go to escape for a while?
Where do I go to get my energy back?
It leaves me in a lost state, looking for space where I can be alone.
A space big enough for me and my thoughts, yet small enough for them not to grow beyond that which I can bear.
They must know their place! It is within the parameters of optimism.
That is where I can hold them...seek them and evaluate them.
I love them...they make me feel alive still.

I watch the talks of others to numb the overthinking.
Does it help?
Often they return with vengeance as soon as I exit app.
So it leaves me breathing deeper to forget.
Hoping I find that space I seek for in my mind - as the limitations of my reality hold me back.
It is meant to be this way...it is meant for me to retreat into the lounge of my mind, make the coffee...sip slowly...relaxing...gently.

'Leave me here', I tell the world, as they keep snapping their fingers to bring me back into their space.
'LEAVE ME HERE!' Seems more aggressive to them now.
'Please', I add...

'I'll be back soon...'

What if you were only concerned about you?

What if you were only concerned about you? 

What type of world would we live in? You might ask, well...you wouldn't care really!  Some may say that would be completely selfish, how can we only be concerned about ourselves? What about other people?  Well, they would be concerned about themselves too...So what would we have to worry about?

What are you most concerned about?  Remove yourself from the 'wars', politics, economics, tertiary education, all systems such as these. None of those are your concern.  YOU are your only concern. 

You are all you have. Everyone else and everything else in this world should never come before yourself.  Focus on you... Sometimes we get desperate to find someone who we can relate to best.

Why can't I find someone like me who likes the same things I do, or has the same outlook on life as I do?

Why would you want to when you already have YOU! The problem is that we search for someone who is like us or someone who understands us, not trusting ourselves to become the person we wish to meet. The one we wish to spend most of our time with...

Are we scared to be alone? To do things alone? To venture out into the world alone? Who goes out to parties/movies/restaurants alone?! That is crazy...right? 

My freedom came when I was able to be by myself for long periods of time and not feel anxious, lonely or sad.  I have reached a beautiful place where I enjoy the company of others, but also love my own company immensely!  I make jokes and laugh with myself (not at myself...let's clear that up), I compliment myself often (this is not conceited!) and I motivate myself when I have to (even if that requires using a Les Brown accent to do so).  Spending time with yourself allows you to get to know yourself on a deeper level.  You get to understand how you operate in different settings and you get to experience and learn new things about yourself daily.  More importantly, you will automatically be happier if all you did was focus on yourself and making yourself happy.  Being unconditionally happy...this means being happy right now!! This very moment! Not when you achieve success, not when the right partner comes around, not when you get a new car, right now, without conditions!  Can you be unconditionally happy? 

This requires you to be in constant communication with yourself, being honest with yourself and admitting 'mistakes'.  Yet, the beauty I have found is that there are no such things as mistakes or wrong choices...only chances for you to figure out what it is you want.  When you know what you don't want, you know what you do want. 

So I challenge you to spend more time with yourself to really and truly get to a beautiful place of self-awareness.  Michael Jackson knew it.  He knew that in order for this world to operate at it's best, we had to focus on ourselves first, then everything else will fall into place.

Know yourself.  Love yourself.  Take care of yourself.  You...FIRST!