This year taught me that playing it safe will have you feeling anxious and fearful, but trying things will have you feeling the same, with just a little twist of excitement. I’ve heard it before, but now I believe it.
This year I did things that I was afraid of doing. Afraid that people might let me down. I was afraid to step up because what if it fails and those people who have always looked up to me or believed I could make anything work will no longer do so or they will be disappointed. I felt those uncomfortable feelings and did it anyway. Sometimes my fears came true and sometimes the complete opposite.
I started this year feeling helpless and not knowing what I wanted to do with my life…again. Staying the same did bring me comfort, but it brought depressive thoughts and anxieties. I thought that if I am gonna sit with this comfortable pain then I cannot preach about pulling the thorn from your foot if I am the one choosing to walk around with it.
This year taught me that allowing these uncomfortable feelings to just exist gives you a chance to see why they are there. These feelings are not meant to make you stop living, they are meant to show you why it is such a beautiful thing to be alive. People might say that I only have these insights in retrospect, obviously! The clarity of thought cannot come when the tape is running on auto. What I did realise in the midst of the auto-play was that I had a choice. I can do nothing and continue to feel this way, or I can try something and maybe, just maybe I will feel better. I chose one thing to focus on at a time…
Fitness. I started with just 10 minutes of workout, and I ended up joining the gym and teaching more which upped my fitness levels and led me to feel the most confident in my body.
Then diet. I chose to eat more vegetables and fruit, and I ended up doing a 60-day no sugar, no alcohol diet that made me feel more myself and healthy!
Then my creative and artistic side. I started dancing again and drawing now and then, I ended up doing a writing course and producing a quite few new choreographies for the year.
Then spiritual. I started by meditating at least 10 minutes a day (not every day), I ended up doing a 7 session empowering, focused and uplifting coaching programme with a life coach that proved I was the only one holding myself back from greatness and my success while I was blaming others for it. I even learnt about my human design and what I need to do in life to live a life of purpose.
Then business. I started this year by attempting dance workshops again (after the 2-year break) and I ended up with a registered company which brought in financial and marketing benefits. This company also ended the year with its first production ever!
This year I took on new experiences and I let go of ones that no longer served me. How do you know if they don’t serve you? Simply examine each experience and ask if it is pulling you forward into new possibilities or is it pulling you back or is it making you feel stuck right where you are.
This year I lived out the slogan of my company GODANCE: ‘be YOU in a world of them’.
I now ask you the question, who are you in this world of them?
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